I gotten used to having your around. And now that you’re busy and school is about to open again, I feel more distant from than ever. It bothers me how much it bothers me. We’re a complicated collective yes, and we’ve talked about our complicated friend-boyfriend-girlfriend-bestfriend-lovers drama a million times. We’re together but not together, we kiss, hold hands, trash talk, hug and have our own little corner of existence where we and we alone could free ourselves from the social constructs that we have often been bided by.
Now here we are in our little peace of heaven and understanding and I feel like you’re suddenly too far away.
I feel like i’ m moving while standing still and I think about you way too much in the past two weeks. You’re going on and we’re whatsappin everyday but I want you around more, I want you and I to co out and shit and I could feel like we’re actually spending time, instead of just casually at my house or waiting for me when the meeting is over.
I have an issue with wanting you around too much.
I have an issue with thinking about you at the end of all my thoughts
wondering what you’re doing and if and when you’re going to be in the vicinity of my house.
I think I need to not need you so much.
I need to just go back into the void and talk to other people.
I think I just need to shut, and make new friends.